"Oh to Grace how great a debtor
daily I'm constrained to be.
Let thy goodness, like a fetter
bind my wandering heart to Thee!"

Sunday, July 18, 2010


Doing some site maintenance. As you all could probably tell, the blog needed a makeover. Will probably be changing a few times in the next week until I nail down a good look.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Wow, it has been forever since I've actually written on this thing. I'm semi-embarrassed :/ but I realize that this blog got its start during the year that I was sitting out of bball due to NCAA transfer rules. No basketball games and lots of blog writing had a direct correlation sooooo maybe now that my career is officially finished I will write more? We shall see.

A quick update, I have moved to Southern California this past month and actually started my {new life} out here. It's a lot at once for sure: my identity as a college athlete has come to an end, my super long distance relationship with Lane has come to an end (not the relationship just the long distance part haha), and I am thousands of miles from my family and friends. But the Lord is so gracious, and His orchestrating of all the details has been glorious. I am so blessed to have a job out here which I started today. I am a 'National Trainee' for Sears Holdings Co. so I am training as a retail manager there. I interned with them last summer during summer bball conditioning at school and the Lord blessed me with a job offer from that. And they were able to place me out here on the west coast, so like I said, the Lord orchestrated all of that according to His will. I can't believe that I actually get to eat lunch with Lane and hang out whenever we want to, and it doesn't involve flying across the country to see each other. It has been more than amazing so far.

The reformed fellowship out here is incredible. It actually blows me away. Lane and I are attending Christ Reformed Church which is pastored by Kim Riddlebarger from the White Horse Inn radio show. To have listened to that for years and now be sitting under Kim's teachings is such a huge blessing. Also, a best friend of mine THAT I MET FROM THIS BLOG (yea we started off as cyber weirdo friends lol) lives an hour south of me. Getting to fellowship with her and her husband more has been longgg awaited. I have met so many great people already out here that it's so exciting to think about what all the Lord is doing. Now that my job has started and I'm working full time, time-management is going to be crucial for me again. But its amazing that I go to work every morning and I feel relieved that my manager can't make me get on the line and run sprints til I die. Haha. I know that sounds ridiculous, but its a huge burden off my shoulders. Crazy. I wonder how long that feeling will last.

I pray that the Lord would use me for His glory in this next phase of my life. I don't know what that looks like, really. For so long, my calling was so clear. And as hard as it was to be a vessel broken by the Lord in the midst of the ungodliness of women's college basketball, it became something that was familiar to me. The opportunities the Lord provided for me became something like a rhythm, and although I of course failed miserably at times, the Lord always brought something encouraging to me, like a soul eager to learn more about Christ that I could invest in and mourn with and rejoice with along that path. I knew I would get persecuted, but it was almost like I was familiar with it- even knowing what types of persecution to expect and how to deal with it (sometimes. It still hurt though). This....this is all just so new to me. Sharing Christ in the workplace is harder because I don't live with these people. They don't know much about me except for what they see from 9-5. They don't live in the next room and they don't eat 3 meals a day with me and go on road trips with me. I pray the Lord will guide me, teach me and continue to mold me and transform me into the image of His son. That's the only way anything can get done, anyways. I bring nothing to the table. Which reminds me:

I love pastor Riddlebarger's illustration of communion. All of us, Oliver Twist-like, come to the table with nothing in our bowls...nothing to offer, just dirty and hungry and eager to be fed and filled by the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen to that.

And with that, I can't really find much more to say. What an amazing image.

(Except for...the title of this post has nothing to do with anything in this post. Hope it didn't disappoint anyone too badly. It's just that I couldn't think of anything to call it...and I experienced my first earthquake out here a few days ago. So I mean, I just thought I would write my first blog post as a Southern Cal resident and name it earthquake in honor of my first one.) ha. Ok goodnighttt, I need to get some sleep.